WaitinG For U

Monday, May 15, 2006

sad..

. another day . i never slp for like 24 hours already . feel tired actually but den dun knw why just dont feel like turning in. yesterday have a quarrel with honey; its like she still dont knw whether am i mr good or bad. just because her fren say they dont tink i am good.. cant they just leave us alone why they only see my 1 side wht abt my other side. there are good and bad yet they only knw abt bad. nearly really nearly broke up yesterday . 2nd time perhaps. i still manage to met her in the morning at 7 for breakfast first time wake up so early go eat. went clementi to eAt. things are slightly better i can feel. . when i was in sch first 4 hours lec was really toture damm sleeply fall asleep.. siansz ... Have a rather busy day in sch. project board totaly screwed up by the stupid drill.. punch 1 hole can shift to the side. shit mehz... i dun knw hw liao la... need to do so much stuff getting stress got to cope between sch honey home and cash. i am a human u knw ... i am not robot. i need a break .. i am tired . i going to break down u knw.. anyone can understand all i went through. no one..
i try not to restrict u cause i dont wan to cage u up . i dun wan u to lose u freedom but i end up being hurt. i only wan the world to have only u and me...
no more other ppl. and u not drinking anymore i dun like... why cant u understand . if u dont like me to do it why u do it. u dont wan to be hurt but end up hurting me. i love u i dun wanna lose u . cant u tink the same ting as me. after having dinner with honey. ride to ps was damm long hot.. i am tired i nearly dozed off .but i still force myself to ride carefully.. she notice it . she is worry unhappy abt it.. but cant she understand wht i did why i did.. we sat down oustide ps and have a long chat.
i dun wanan waste my time anymore . i remember wht chris told me . u are not young anymore u still wanna play around.. i wanna settle down i really wan. i though i have but why when i wanna settle down so many trouble happen so many upset its like in a soccer game. u bet too much on a favourite but end up u lose u whole bet. so heartache.. when i really love a person why cant she do the same ting. why she has to doubt me. why /... wo dui ni de ai zhi you lao tian zi dao. no one will knw.. u may knw or may not . or u may bluff yourself or some ppl willl come in between. i am me nw. u wan the good me or the bad me NOW>>>> i am trying to be good . ok lets not say try . i am being good nw. cant u see it. just because wht they say u choose to tink another way. life is just so unfair .
wht good u have done will not come back to u . but all those bad. retribution perhaps..
i have done all i can have u..?.
I LOVE U ,I LOVE U, I LOVE U

hw much i love u i really hope u knw.

love is dead at [7:41 AM]

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