WaitinG For U

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

falling sick..

..has been having a bad throat since like monday... met up with honey on monday really though would just lost her.. luckly i manage to bring things back on track... *Phew* yesterday she came over my place to study.. for like 3 hours.... den today was like super shag.. throat damm pain .. feverish feeling.. tounge super tight.. its like feeling heaty... wanan meet up with honey de. but den end up never meet cause i was like feeling vvery sick. when i reach home took some medicine.. den turn in to bed. hw i wish she was right beside me.. hugging me to slp .. woke up liao no appetite to eat... no mood to study but yet have to.... wonder wht is she doing nw... missing her her and only her....

love is dead at [7:36 AM]

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

nice day

hmmm this morning wake up so sianz... gave honey a morning call.. den 12 went back midac for year 2 student tour... ha. just go there eat buffet get cca point.. after tht though can meet honey but she meeting fren so ok.. den end up play soccer den around 3.30 met her at bukit timah plaza.. i end up at shoping centre... when she told me plaza i though its bukit panjang plaza nearly went der. luckly she call me... ha . den went changi with her.. see her sick feel heartpain.. hope she will get well soon.. went eat mac with her den sit at the viewing area for like 1 hour .. watching the plane.. took a few pic over there .. damm happy.. den after tht went ecp... stay till 10.. bo pian .. wanna her to reach home b4 her dad... + wanna her go home rest early... honey must take medicne wor... miss ya ... dun knw when den can meet u again...:<

love is dead at [8:19 AM]

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Monday, May 22, 2006

i love ya honey

i has been a day of sianz morning turn to happy. really feel so happy when i see honey... my heart just feel so relieved... really feel so happy seeing u .. after sch went bugis to eat mos burger . after mos went eat swense ..eat ice-cream with honey... feel so xin fu.. hope tings are getting back on track.. cant lose u love u too much... hw i wish to accompany honey but tommor got lab test sianz... 1 more part to finish .. wonder wht honey is doing miss her much...zhi xiang gao shu ni i will always be by u side... heng xiang dai ni dao tian ya hai jiao. qu yi ge shu yu wo he ni de shi jie guo ze kuai le xin fu de shen huo. mei feng mei miao xin ni do xiang zhe ni...

love is dead at [7:17 AM]

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

a day.

today very tired.. sianz . wake up is like a zombie .. dream of zombie. omg... shag. after sch went out with honey.. honey very unhappy.. feel so unhappy 2. see her like tht.. haiz/. went collect my last pay check from sr.den went down marina parade .she dun feel happy:<<.. sat down ate kaya thoast with her and eat.. tok abt her mom tok abt the way they tink and the way we tink. after tht went 99 turn... stay there for like 2hour .. really enjoy the 2 hour... too bad no sunset to see if not it will be better. i love u honey... after tht went holland ate with her. felt so xin fu. as i say there are 3 song which when i hear i will tink of u . first tong hua. its make me tink back of our story the road we went through. superwomen make me tink u are someone who is so important in my heart that i cant let go i cant lost.. but den tings crop up which make me a bit unhappy . i dun like really dun like ... my gf sitting in front of me toking secretly with a guy .. wht come into my mind?... hw abt tinking me toking to another gal like tht ... haiz... feeling du lan and heartache.. heartache seems to appear more.. why cant u tok openly . i wont feel tht hurt ... haiz... its true i really wanan be love and be care for nw... i love too much.. really ... just so sensitive with some stuff . why?.. cause i love her too much.... yah...i really do..

love is dead at [6:44 AM]

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

honey

oh honey i love u so much.. met her after sch and went far east to eat with her. den went east coast. sat there for like 4 hours talking and tlaking .. really realise that a lot of tings are fated. a lot of tings when we tink back its like from someting which cannot be done we done it.. no become yes. miracely we walk through step by step and we dont realise it. without tht guy she may not realise hw much she love me. without quarreling we might not realise hw much we care for 1 another. really have a good talk this few days.. really hope tings for the best... love me for whu i am...i love u lots.

love is dead at [9:27 AM]

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Monday, May 15, 2006

sad..

. another day . i never slp for like 24 hours already . feel tired actually but den dun knw why just dont feel like turning in. yesterday have a quarrel with honey; its like she still dont knw whether am i mr good or bad. just because her fren say they dont tink i am good.. cant they just leave us alone why they only see my 1 side wht abt my other side. there are good and bad yet they only knw abt bad. nearly really nearly broke up yesterday . 2nd time perhaps. i still manage to met her in the morning at 7 for breakfast first time wake up so early go eat. went clementi to eAt. things are slightly better i can feel. . when i was in sch first 4 hours lec was really toture damm sleeply fall asleep.. siansz ... Have a rather busy day in sch. project board totaly screwed up by the stupid drill.. punch 1 hole can shift to the side. shit mehz... i dun knw hw liao la... need to do so much stuff getting stress got to cope between sch honey home and cash. i am a human u knw ... i am not robot. i need a break .. i am tired . i going to break down u knw.. anyone can understand all i went through. no one..
i try not to restrict u cause i dont wan to cage u up . i dun wan u to lose u freedom but i end up being hurt. i only wan the world to have only u and me...
no more other ppl. and u not drinking anymore i dun like... why cant u understand . if u dont like me to do it why u do it. u dont wan to be hurt but end up hurting me. i love u i dun wanna lose u . cant u tink the same ting as me. after having dinner with honey. ride to ps was damm long hot.. i am tired i nearly dozed off .but i still force myself to ride carefully.. she notice it . she is worry unhappy abt it.. but cant she understand wht i did why i did.. we sat down oustide ps and have a long chat.
i dun wanan waste my time anymore . i remember wht chris told me . u are not young anymore u still wanna play around.. i wanna settle down i really wan. i though i have but why when i wanna settle down so many trouble happen so many upset its like in a soccer game. u bet too much on a favourite but end up u lose u whole bet. so heartache.. when i really love a person why cant she do the same ting. why she has to doubt me. why /... wo dui ni de ai zhi you lao tian zi dao. no one will knw.. u may knw or may not . or u may bluff yourself or some ppl willl come in between. i am me nw. u wan the good me or the bad me NOW>>>> i am trying to be good . ok lets not say try . i am being good nw. cant u see it. just because wht they say u choose to tink another way. life is just so unfair .
wht good u have done will not come back to u . but all those bad. retribution perhaps..
i have done all i can have u..?.
I LOVE U ,I LOVE U, I LOVE U

hw much i love u i really hope u knw.

love is dead at [7:41 AM]

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Friday, May 05, 2006

sticking with u ..

wht a day .. i am like so tired since yesterday till nw.. feel like dozing off in the morning lect.. so bored. went driving lesson at 12. nearly dozed off also omg.... damm shag... mpd giving me headache. by wed need to get my board out if not no good marks. though can meet honey at nitez. its our 2nd month. full of trouble this month. but manage to meet her at nitez. anyway she gave me a real suprise. she pass me a present which she ask me to keep she told me its her fren de ask me pass her sun den when i reach home she ask me open. den i knw its for me.. so shocked never expected. a levis shirt ,zippo, a card and a photo card so sweet . honey i really love ya baby.. never expect u to do it for me..really hope we can have better days ahead.

love is dead at [10:45 AM]

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

did i love the wrong person

nw tell me did i ?.. i am getting tired and more tired. i want to hold on but do i have the power to hold on longer... i dun wan to let go . can anyone tell me wht is going on. why is tings so hard for us.. tings are getting worst...this few days this few weeks.. tings are not getting into my flavour.

love is dead at [8:37 AM]

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Monday, May 01, 2006

long long time ago..

haiz... its seems long long time since my last post... its going to be 2nd month soon for me and her... but this month it seem very hard to pass so many thing has happen. FIrstly she went out with a guy and got drunk and they .... together .. she was crying when she told me i was like super du lan hw can she do such ting behind me but i cant bear to hate her my heart is full of love for her... i ask myself why why... i have 2 good fren whu tell me if i really love her i should forgive and give it another try .. i did it.. we have a good talk on the next day .. and we sort it out. but someting happen again... on thur one of my fren went out with her and he bring out about my past which she cant take it .. and that we went into a moment of breakdown.. we nearly broke off .. i was totally crazy i cant take it ... i went for a drink with ys and hj on tht nitez... really feeling terrible as to why why tings keep on happen...and today we went to eat and we saw her sis . i leave no good impression to her sis . and she was very fan.. she was haizs.... really very very tired..

cant we go back to the pass where we have started ... noting to tink off noting to worry no barrier.. super sianz... super super headache..

still remember the past . Valentine day. we went east coast i brough her 1 rose. and 1 hand made flower.. we sat down on the beach.. i light up a stick. its really romatic.. she was so touch tht she hug me.i was like thks god... at the end we got together.. and i did try my best to make her totally mine.. although at first i was like quite reserved i dun wish to put my whole feeling into it i am afraid i might get hurt again... but i still put it in.. i love her too deeply.. still remember our cable car ride.. our first neo print the fire work we put together... our first month all those memory.i was tinking of giving her a supprise on this coming fri .. our 2nd month.its really a terrible month.. honey we went through so much can we continue on from here...our relationship is like the sea . dun knw when will high tide dun knw when will be fine...

love is dead at [6:59 AM]

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