WaitinG For U

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Mistake

looking at the whole ting nw make me realise its just a big mistake which i make.. a silly 1 too.. someting which is done behind me.. i just dont knw hw to say it nw.. its wil be a lesson tht will be remember by me.. only 1 person knw wht i am toking abt.,. perhaps she get the idea 2. anyway its has been quite some time ago.. since stuff came to brightnesss.. its time to really move on and nOt tink why why why .. why like tht wht happen actually.. nah .. move on...

love is dead at [9:56 AM]

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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

3.30

Have a rather irrating nitez yesterday.. 2 miss call. 1 msg wake me up at 3 different time while i was sleepiing. i was like damm piss off whts more same person.. feellike yelling at her i am not u bf i dun need to report to u when i reach Home...hmmm tink this will hurt her a lot. so better dont.. slept for 1/1/2 hour nap going take cake soon den going down to fren House liao.. hmmm let see hw the program is tonight.. hmmm thursday Having lab test jia lat .. dun knw can score or not .. hope to score since it is the last lab test of the term b4 exam hmmm just reach Home damm tired... went abc market eat .. de food damm sucks.. tink 5 star all of us only give 1 .. some not even 1 star.12 person spilt into 2 table.. . they let us wait so long and yet food sucks.. never mind.. got 1 aunty even went up to our bd boy and get 4 d number.. what the.. never mind i am buying the num tommor ... lol.. hmm after tht went macro House cut cake drink .. hmmm cant drink much carlsberg .. ta like 3 big cup already cannnot .. just dont like drinking tht perfer liquor.. den went over ktv till nw den reach home tired.. oh man . tomor still going out with someone ..luckly its in the afternoon ok better get sleep nw ...

love is dead at [12:35 PM]

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Sunday, August 28, 2005

Bloddly Hell

alot of people would see my family as a happy 1 but no mehz.. damm kp especially mom.. already fed up .. i am just like my Brother . u piss me off i will just scream vuglaties at u dun blame me.. and wht fucking shit u wan from me. perhaps this is wht people use to say everyfamily has their own hidden problem..
a warning mehz.. better dun step on my tail.. this is like dun knw hw many time i quarrel with her after brother left for overseas studies.. cb . damm dulan.. vugalities will just come out even u are my whu or whu .. i dun care whuever fuck u are mehz.. piss me off when i tok to u in a nice way and u will get what u want from me...cb just cant take it sometime mehz... things just happen 1 after another... argh.....i tink i will suffer from breakdown soon..so many fucking shit happen this week.. break off , constant quarrel, kana ask to leave damm hell... woh lao.. all in 1 shitty weak... kao... give me a break la.. i need it mehz.... all the improper word just wanan come out ..

love is dead at [9:52 AM]

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Saturday, August 27, 2005

A rather ridiculous dream.

Let me see finally Not working anymore.. gotta look for better job else where going for another intervue next week .. hmmm wht an idiot job.. nw i realise life is like a moving train.. they will never wait for u .. 1 moment they say u are making this mistake the other they dont give u time to change they just say fire not even job other stuff too .. recently so many tings just hAppen .. Suay or wht sia.. nm gotta work Harder exam coming.. .. hmmm anyway i Have long to cHange to Another Better Job.. its time mehz... to move on..gotta learn this fucking lesson.. never wait ..... toking to those 4 crazy fren .. Joey jie. ming . pOrky.. Wohz lao tok crap but very Long never tok lIke tht lehz... Hmmmm i tink i am so great today .. first time work never touch a single stick . 1day nO touch lehz.. perhaps deal to coughing and bad throat.. damm sucky mehz..anyway finally get back to the way i wanted with u . fell quite relieve eventually .. so many tings coming up soon. Lab test next week 2nd tp test on 5th.. first paper 9th .. stress.... Jia Lat Havent start prePAring Hw... AIyo...

Hmmm Had a Rather Bad Nitez of slept. throat keep on irritat me. damm sicky feeling .. woke up a few time .. i even Had a dream of me and her. we went oUt Have lunch or dinner i tink also not sure the timing i just know its a bright day . we will eating chatting Happily den when we left i put my hand on her she told me "sorry i am already Not yours" i am like stun this few word stun me der i am like losing the whole world .. head spinning around.. hmmm drama sia... lol.. WhAHa alamak.. aiyo why such dream appear.. ANYWAY i dont like to dream of my love 1. supposingly i cant dream perhaps.. and if i do someting bad will Happen like break up . from nearly succesfull to total down into the drain. dats is my experience. i also dont knw why. this is the 2nd time i dream of -- . first shouLd be on a monday 2nd yesterday .. hmmm can still remember sia... pillow and the bolster was actually toking abt it with kit b4 i sleep . but too bad u are not the pillow and bolster in my dream. den work up fell like shit gone case.. prepare to say bye bye .. and its really true whahaha.. hw can anyone beileve it mehz. HaHa.. anyway totally feel sucky nw mehz.. another boring day at Home gotta study tp.. finish up online exercise .. argh last question stuck thts why come in blog .chest damm PaiN SIA..... argh..

love is dead at [11:54 PM]

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Friday, August 26, 2005

Friday

let me see, aNother Boring Nitez At Home.. Really feel liKe getting my bUtt out of this HOuse But No where to go.. Chris's Bike Buang cant get out .. aiyo hmmm i just wanna get mine and hope i dun end up like him. 2 more weeks.. Hope i will Pass . gotta work full tommor gotta be tired. anyway HAve a cHat with Pauline yesterday . Same fate.. hmmm perhAPs its time tht we question ourselves wht is love. or being single is better?

love is dead at [6:53 AM]

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Thursday, August 25, 2005

ENough

anyway lets stop this type of Boring stuff... u Carry on u life i carry on mine... hmmm

love is dead at [8:00 AM]

HInt

To ------:
My Language sucks so .. this is a Blog write so proper for ?.. its for me to knw . Yeah many Ppl.. me 2, u tink only u fren.. even my parents .. No offence lA.. . if 2 person really like each other is look really tht important.. 1 super sexy lady can be with a nerd wht u expect .. why because they simply love each other heart .the way their partner treat them.. hmmm u so call hint dun like to be control den allow u to flirt behind my BAck .. a lot of tings i knw .. its just tht sometime i dun wish to say. still remember the msg i saw when u see u doctor.. hmmm u tink i beileve u crap ex.. okok.. maybe ex.. But still tht is flirting.. since u like to play around den go ahead no 1 is there to stop u .. But dont get plAY Back 1 day. decision making hmmm gals decision making simply change within seconds 1 moment can say ok de other too tired ... den my problem ah .. u can be at u guy Bd cHalet why not Mine. lol.. u are just finding excuses for yourself only . a super yandao guy is good but can kills a jellyfish

love is dead at [7:39 AM]

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Galz

wht wrong mehz.. did i tok abt u .. i got so many pass .. 1 by 1 .. i need nOt say abt u .. and btw wht is gals to me.. leave and go... or i should say .. just a passerby in my life.,. i can say i am Not toking abtt u .. U have nOting for me to tok abt.. just wasting my effort.. if u feel tht he is the one for u go ahead..

Ok if u wan let me tok abt oursden..
actaully u are bascially de same as her.. BUt i don call u slut.. she is older den u .. and yet she still dun Have the right mind to tink.. and u .. ok if really feel dat tht guy is u "true love " i feel Happy for u . But use u Heart and tink it carefully its he really the one. u knw wht u are tinking .. i hope .. breaking with me already tell me someting .. whether u love a person to be with or just happy to be with .. for me if u feel tht u wanna play just tell me so tht i wont put too much hope in this relationship.. if u really love a person a relationship wont be so fragil . perhaps u are different from other gals.. perhaps u feel Noting abt this breakup cause u can get another 1 so fast.. i could have done de same tings to but no i didnt . i wanna reflect on myself did i make any mistake . or are u the 1. ..perhaps i really did not get over you although its has been like 4 days ago. why .. why i still have u in my heart.. perhaps if i dun love u tht much i wont even crap all this stuff. wht for waste my time.. this few days i Have been thinking aBout our pass de Places we go . the 3 mOvies we Watch.. its just so wonderful. the scroll along esplanade , although the pLaces we went is limited bUt its enough to let me keep it within me. there are simply so much suprises i wanna gave u on u special day bUt i cant at the moment u knw hw much i hate myself .. hw much i wanna express myself to tell u . " i love u " the dream of me riding u up to mouth Faber standing beside u hugging u waist looking at de nice scenery its just so wonderful. or the walk along east coast beach hAving the strong wind blowing at us . holding u tight enough . But all this is just Hopes . the Hopes has vanish . why cant u hold it longer for me to show u . why u prefer to pick another 1 instead of staying on.

love is dead at [10:21 PM]

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

tuesday Boring dAy

Hmmm wht a day and nitez.. yesterday wanted to write some stuff But end UP NOt writing couldnt even get in . let me see perhaps Holding on too tightly after a breakoff is a bad ting to do. letting go is a better idea to do . there is no more turn Bad nO matter hw u care and hw u love .. u just Have to mOve on Yourself . time wont go back to where we started for me to ammend myself bUt its will be a lesson and need to be learn. PerhAps choOsing u Partner the best thing to look for is cHaracter Wise. we got different ChArActer thts why we cant merge tOgether...Anyway This few days is like very irrating keep on remembering those pLaces we use to go eat or whateveer the smiles kisses she gave me...

love is dead at [1:08 AM]

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

Relationship

Finally it ended .. guess wht i saw her with another guy plAying pool . she push me away . from tht point i knw someting is wrong. 1 month 5 days of relationship.. is just so fragil. why . why cant she try to savage things if she love me.. or she doesnt at all.

love is dead at [8:23 AM]

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

feeling

Just some tout of wht is going on. some frens understand wht i am going thru some dont .. making me piss of. ok. toking abt relationship isnit it suppose to be 2 party . and nOt single Party. why someone could just keep it to himself/herself and Not share with his/her Partner . as wht ppl say each relationship stuff use to appear soon as its weather hw both party cope. wht i hope for is to share those joy and sadness i have with my love 1 . am i in the wrong. maybe its time where Both party tink abt it.. tears just simply drop u knw.

love is dead at [9:57 PM]

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